My family is what I have lived for. They are one of the driving forces behind my decision to Begin this journey. The main idea...I have five kids that I wanna play with. I have five kids that I wanna see get married and have kids. I want to be able to live to play with their kids. I want to be able to run and jump and crawl with their kids. This should not be a longing, but a reality. I have a wife that I married very young. We had kids very young. I want to be able to enjoy a life with her after the kids are grown up and out! I want to experience the travel we put off to have kids and raise them. I have a mom that I don't want to have to bury a son. I want to be strong enough to take care of her when she gets old one day!
Presently these all feel like dreams. In my current situation, I'm looking at maybe 25 years left here. That's not enough! I'm going to shoot for more like 45 more years! That's not to much to hope for. That's not too much to work for.
Today, I am raising a family. I have young kids at home. My weight and health interfere with that. I tire too soon, I am exhausted on weekends, I waste precious time taking a nap on Sundays. Even though it's only once a week for two hours....that's like 5 days a year! I feel like the weight and depression have caused me to turn inward. I don't want to go out like I use to. I don't have the drive to get up, get ready, and o out for the day. Don't get me wrong...we do things all the time, but without the energy and enthusiasm I once knew.
Besides longevity, I hope to gain energy and life from this journey. I want increased energy to stay motivated for my family. I want to be there for them when they need me now and tomorrow.
